On a personal note...

A Short Story

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This is not a goodbye, it’s a pause. A much needed pause that came on it’s own. I should have written this months ago when it started but I was waiting to see if I could get into the regular routine and flow of writing book reviews and bookish posts again. It’s obvious that I could not.

A short story for you:

About four years ago, I wanted to create a blog where I could talk about all of the things I love: literature, parenting, education, nature, travel, humor…you know, the stuff of life. It was also a big shift in my life because I wanted to return to my career in education full-time. I wanted a bigger piece of the education pie. But I couldn’t get back in, so I changed careers and began working as a literacy associate at my public library. Surrounded by books and discuss them all day?! YES! Blogging about life was pushed aside for a focus on literature. Books have always been a huge part of my life, so why not review books and make book lists and bookish posts? As it picked up steam, I also started talking about middle grade books and short stories, both which I love so much. Speaking about middle grade books and advocating literacy with local schools gave me the educator itch once again. I wanted back in. Desperately. So I headed back to school for an ESL endorsement, which took about a year. Even with that school work load, I was able to keep up with the blog regularly. So it wasn’t that. We even packed up a house and moved within four months and I was still blogging through it. Once I finished the endorsement, I sadly left the library and went into resume and interview mode. I was offered a challenging, yet perfect job for me, an ESL/Sped Middle School Teacher.

That’s when the shift began. Not because of the crazy educator workload, but because at that same time other things started to change.

I don’t want to give a certain campaign and then dreaded election any more power but it did absolutely shift my focus. Working with students who deal with some very serious concerns, shifted my focus. Having two daughters (both almost teenagers) who are part of the conversations of the world today, shifted my focus. Having almost a year ofย  medical issues, shifted my focus. All of it together changed me and the writer of this blog. Actually, it didn’t really change me, but brought me back to the person who started this blog four years ago. Jill of all trades, Master of none. That was once an idea for this blog. Still might be.

I still read, but not as voraciously. That voracious reading was filling a need for me at that time. Now I have new lists for not only books to read, but places to travel to, projects to complete in our new home, hobbies to try. My focus is elsewhere. I want to take photos of all of the nature in my backyard. I want to learn Italian and play the piano again. I enjoy baking and cooking and gardening and writing letters to friends. I want to print all of my photos and organize them into albums. I want to play old records and watch “classic” movies with my kids. (Their idea of “classic” is scary and makes me feel old). I want to dig out all of my CDs and educate my girls about bands that shaped my life. I’m enjoying watching them play volleyball and practicing with them in the backyard. I want to advocate for others, volunteer my time and revisit the animal shelter, where we used to foster animals. I want to fight the good fight but also find time for joy and peace. Those interests take me away from this computer, reluctantly, but also happily.

Anyway, I am the same person who started this blog. Maybe a little different. That’s why I chose The Daily Dosage as the name for it. I wanted a name that could reference so many passions in my life; daily doses of literature but also of all of the things that I love to talk about. I don’t know how that will look or if I’ll even come here to write about any of that. Some days I want to share, and some days I want it for my own.

I can’t take this blog down. I just can’t. Like the short stories I love so much, this one has ended. But the beautiful thing is that many new stories are coming.

I’m not on social media much. Spending too much time on Facebook and Twitter really zaps the energy out of me. There is so much anger and vitriol spread on there like a disease, so I’ve taken the apps off of my phone. (Doesn’t it feel as though you’re being yelled at when on those two sites? Maybe it’s just me.) I do like Goodreads to keep track of my books and Instagram still feels like a “safe” place to share photos and updates. All of the links are at the top of the page if you want to connect.

I’ll be back. I know it. I just don’t know when or how it will look. Until then, be kind to one another. I’ll see you soon.


11 thoughts on “A Short Story

  1. I really appreciate this, Marisa. You are not the same you. None of us are. I find myself in a similar mode, if for some different reasons (and one big “SAME” reason). I find many of us are. I don’t see posts from many of the wonderful ladies I’ve met through blogging and I’ve been very (VERY) infrequent in my blogging. I miss you all, and will continue to miss you all, but love the little snippets we all still share. So I hope you will stop by from time to time to share what’s going on, whether it’s a book or just life. Congratulations on the new/perfect position! Sorry that meant leaving the library. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Hang in and take care.

    • Thanks! Lauren, the best thing about being a part of the book blogging community is meeting all of the wonderful people. You especially!!!! I’m not seeing their posts either but peeking on social media to see what everyone is doing is something that I love and makes me smile. I love seeing everyone’s adventures and new chapters in life. Books will always be a part of me and what brought us all together. I hope to get back on here from time to time to “chat”. I miss it. Hang in and take care of you also.

  2. You betaed my first novel, and I’ve been a follower of your blog since you started it. In a way, I’ve always considered our relationship special since we were there for each other’s first literary endeavors. I’ve enjoyed reading your thoughts on books, life, TV shows … and I was hoping to continue that over the years.

    Thus it is sad to me that you’re pausing the blog, though I get and respect your decision to do so. You gotta do what’s best for you. I will still get updates from you on Goodreads, but it ain’t the same. I hope someday soon you will return to blogging so we can stay in touch. In the meantime, I will miss you. You have my email, so you can always reach out to me if you want to talk about anything. And I’ll buy you a meal if you’re ever in LA. Take care.

    • Hi Alex!!!! What kind words. Yes, I remember beta-ing (sp?) your novel and it was wonderful.

      I will continue on here at some point in some way, but right now I need to rethink how this blog will continue. The days of “formal” book reviews are over (I think) and I would love to do more of a lifestyle blog. I just don’t know.

      I feel a summer recap post is coming in the near future about books,TV, podcasts and movies…so keep an eye out. I miss this space. Maybe this will jump start the writing once again.

      Take care and talk soon! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Hi Sarah. I’ll be back just not sure in what capacity. The “formal” book reviews are over, though, I think. There are so many other things I want to share and talk about….so we’ll see what happens.

  3. I am in a similar boat as you, though for some different (and some similar) reasons. I do very much miss the community though, and that’s one of the reasons I stick around (in a extremely limited capacity). I may text you from time to time with short story recommendations, or just to check in, in case you don’t pop in too often here. ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Hi! I think I will try and aim for a monthly post, just as an update as to what I’m reading/watching/doing, etc. The review thing…not so much right now. I’d LOVE your shorts recs. Text me anytime. ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. A part of me thinks “Don’t go, I’ll miss you too much”, but another knows exactly where you’re coming from. So many awesome bloggers I know have gone into overdrive in the rest of their life to avoid the horror of the country’s leader (it pains me to even type that word- tantrum baby bully is more accurate). It’s hard for me too, so I get it.

    Know that I will miss your words and thoughts and if I ever find out that your travels have brought you to the Pacific Northwest and you didn’t tell me, well, then, you’ll see some serious wrath.

    BIG HUG. Be well.

    • I just love you so! I know I will be back here, just not sure how it will look. Books are still a big part of my life and I LOVE stories, so if I can find a way to bring that here, I’m game.
      Right now I’m obsessed with the LeVar Burton Reads podcast. He reads short stories and his voice is amazing to listen to. It’s exposing me to new authors and new stories, which is very exciting. Yep, nerd alert! ๐Ÿ˜‰
      If I’m in that area, I will most definitely meet up with you. It’s high on my bucket list to visit the Pacific NW.
      BUG HUG. xo

  5. Dearest Marisa,
    I totally get it, and I love the thoughtful care you’ve given this decision. I’ll continue to delight in seeing your selections on Goodreads, and anytime you want to talk books… you know where to find me, lady.
    And it’s comforting to know that you’ll be putting that good stuff out into the world in whatever way you interact with it.

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