Cursor blinking. And blinking. And blinking.
Walk away and save the post just in case.
Repeat this for several days/weeks/months.
This is not a goodbye, it’s a pause. A much needed pause that came on it’s own. I should have written this months ago when it started but I was waiting to see if I could get into the regular routine and flow of writing book reviews and bookish posts again. It’s obvious that I could not.
A short story for you:
About four years ago, I wanted to create a blog where I could talk about all of the things I love: literature, parenting, education, nature, travel, humor…you know, the stuff of life. It was also a big shift in my life because I wanted to return to my career in education full-time. I wanted a bigger piece of the education pie. But I couldn’t get back in, so I changed careers and began working as a literacy associate at my public library. Surrounded by books and discuss them all day?! YES! Blogging about life was pushed aside for a focus on literature. Books have always been a huge part of my life, so why not review books and make book lists and bookish posts? As it picked up steam, I also started talking about middle grade books and short stories, both which I love so much. Speaking about middle grade books and advocating literacy with local schools gave me the educator itch once again. I wanted back in. Desperately. So I headed back to school for an ESL endorsement, which took about a year. Even with that school work load, I was able to keep up with the blog regularly. So it wasn’t that. We even packed up a house and moved within four months and I was still blogging through it. Once I finished the endorsement, I sadly left the library and went into resume and interview mode. I was offered a challenging, yet perfect job for me, an ESL/Sped Middle School Teacher.
That’s when the shift began. Not because of the crazy educator workload, but because at that same time other things started to change.
I don’t want to give a certain campaign and then dreaded election any more power but it did absolutely shift my focus. Working with students who deal with some very serious concerns, shifted my focus. Having two daughters (both almost teenagers) who are part of the conversations of the world today, shifted my focus. Having almost a year of medical issues, shifted my focus. All of it together changed me and the writer of this blog. Actually, it didn’t really change me, but brought me back to the person who started this blog four years ago. Jill of all trades, Master of none. That was once an idea for this blog. Still might be.
I still read, but not as voraciously. That voracious reading was filling a need for me at that time. Now I have new lists for not only books to read, but places to travel to, projects to complete in our new home, hobbies to try. My focus is elsewhere. I want to take photos of all of the nature in my backyard. I want to learn Italian and play the piano again. I enjoy baking and cooking and gardening and writing letters to friends. I want to print all of my photos and organize them into albums. I want to play old records and watch “classic” movies with my kids. (Their idea of “classic” is scary and makes me feel old). I want to dig out all of my CDs and educate my girls about bands that shaped my life. I’m enjoying watching them play volleyball and practicing with them in the backyard. I want to advocate for others, volunteer my time and revisit the animal shelter, where we used to foster animals. I want to fight the good fight but also find time for joy and peace. Those interests take me away from this computer, reluctantly, but also happily.
Anyway, I am the same person who started this blog. Maybe a little different. That’s why I chose The Daily Dosage as the name for it. I wanted a name that could reference so many passions in my life; daily doses of literature but also of all of the things that I love to talk about. I don’t know how that will look or if I’ll even come here to write about any of that. Some days I want to share, and some days I want it for my own.
I can’t take this blog down. I just can’t. Like the short stories I love so much, this one has ended. But the beautiful thing is that many new stories are coming.
I’m not on social media much. Spending too much time on Facebook and Twitter really zaps the energy out of me. There is so much anger and vitriol spread on there like a disease, so I’ve taken the apps off of my phone. (Doesn’t it feel as though you’re being yelled at when on those two sites? Maybe it’s just me.) I do like Goodreads to keep track of my books and Instagram still feels like a “safe” place to share photos and updates. All of the links are at the top of the page if you want to connect.
I’ll be back. I know it. I just don’t know when or how it will look. Until then, be kind to one another. I’ll see you soon.