On a personal note...

Miscellaneous Monday

miscell-monday

Reading…5 books at once. Very. Very. Slowly. I’m in a bad way, reader friends. I’m all over the place and need a serious reading reset. I’ve forgotten to pick up library holds, have incurred fines and falling asleep with book in hand. HELP!! My sister recently read The Girls by Emma Cline and loved it. So I’m trying that one next.

Wanting…to vent/chat/ramble just a wee bit. So bear with me. It’s the reason why I haven’t been voraciously reading  or posting consistently. I am so bogged down with work that I have no space left for creativity. Please thank a teacher the next time you interact with one. They’re not all great, I know. There are bad seeds in every profession. But as a teacher returning to the mix this year, it’s a thankless, unforgivably taxing career. If I could just focus on my students and teach, it would be phenomenal. BUT, but…here’s the list of crap that comes along with the job that I HAVE to do:

  • SLO-Student Learning Objectives
  • TAP-Teacher Appraisal
  • GCN-Global Compliance Network (State Mandated Trainings)
  • TMP-Teacher Mentor Program
  • PD-Professional Development
  • Assessments-My 8th graders partake in 8. YES 8!!
  • Progress Monitoring- Every three weeks

Then I must add :

  • Special Education: IEPs, BIPS, FBAs, CICO, Benchmarks
  • ELL-ACCESS test, Scaffolding galore, Language acquisition
  • Modifying every lesson for every student.
  • Keeping up with the forever-changing standards
  • Learning new math curriculum which started this year. Of course it did.
  • Building and district meetings. Oh the friggin’ meetings! Why so many meetings?!
  • Online everything! Gradebook, Lesson Plans, Assessments, everything! (I’m a pencil and paper girl)
  • Drills. Just to aggravate the flow of a good day.
  • Report Cards are SBA-Standards Based Assessments. It’s crazy people! I’ve seen nothing like it. Gone is the 90-100 is an A. Our district scores on a 4,3,2,1,0 system.

And then the:

  • Parent calls and meetings
  • Student interventions, counseling sessions, life-skills lessons, refereeing, consoling, cheerleading, disciplining, rewarding, throwing my hands up in the air and having a dance party moment.

And I love it. Not all of it. But a majority of it. So why my venting? There are so many expectations put upon teachers and it seems to get worse every year. I’m fresh this year so I’m going in with a half-full attitude. But I see a lot of half-empty around the building. And I get it. I see what is expected of us and when the school as a whole scores very low, we become the throw away society.  I’m at a Title 1 school with students who are poor and don’t have that drive for learning. They are dealing with so much outside of school that learning about proportional ratios is not of value. At parent night I had only 2 parents show up out of 50 that I see every day. It was sad and scary. They will be in high school next year. How do I get them invested in themselves? Their education? Their future? When it’s already pretty bleak. It’s only been 5 weeks and I already care so much for my students. I want to help them so much.

So when I’m done with all my work for the day, or have to put it aside because I can only do so much and have children of my own to help, I can’t even relax with a book. I laugh now because as a substitute a few years ago I used to ask teachers what they were reading for fun. They would look at me like I was nuts. I get it now.

This little vent became longer than I planned but I just wanted you to know that I’m still here. I’m reading your blogs and loving your updates on Instagram. I’ve been sharing my “day in the life of a teacher” photos on Insta, which has been fun. Some of you are on Litsy and Goodreads and I snoop around there as well. Hopefully I’ll get some reviews and bookish posts up here soon.

I’m still crazy in love with all things books and reading. Finding the balance is on-going. I feel the resurge coming soon and can’t wait to make up for lost time.

One little word…sustaining

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12 thoughts on “Miscellaneous Monday

  1. That is so sad that education has to take a back burner to everything else. I am sure a lot of those kids have pretty bad situations that they go home to everyday. Hopefully not all of them. At least they have a teacher that cares about their future so much!

  2. I really liked The Girls – it’s more thoughtful than I expected…gorgeous writing. Hope it settles down your reading! And good luck with all the work!

  3. I hear you on each and every one of these points, friend. My first year teaching was 10 years ago and I can’t even begin to tell you how much everything changed over the 8 years I spent in the classroom. It’s easy to get bogged down, but I think the best teachers are able to push out the noise and focus on what happens in their own classroom (even if that means bucking the system a little to do what’s best for their students). Big encouraging hugs!!

    • Thanks, my lovely friend! I know YOU know how this rodeo goes and I am bucking the system a little here and there. It’s the only way to stay sane. Hope all is going well with your classes. Wish we were closer to compare notes! 😉

  4. What you’re doing is amazing and you need to hear that every day! I’m just sad that you don’t even have the time for the respite of a beautiful book with which to escape. The system is broken when there is no work-life balance at all. 😡

  5. As the mom of an elementary school student, I am so thankful to you and all other teachers. I’m so sorry you have so much extra junk to deal with.

    I hope things get a little easier for you soon!

  6. I’m so sorry to hear that work is such an ordeal. I only teach very sporadically and I never see the same kids for longer than a month, so I only hardly get what you’re going through. But I do know that even just teaching for three hours is FUCKING EXHAUSTING. And I teach minecraft, so it shouldn’t be!! Anyway, I hope you find some moments of peace soon and that the kids/staff/parents treat you well.

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